My Last Day

Tomorrow starts a new chapter. Today is the last page of this chapter. I am scared and nervous and excited. What will tomorrow bring? Will I be successful? What if I fail? Will my children be OK if I'm not at their beck and call?

Busy Busy

Two days of errand-running and I'm beat. Yesterday was Kohl's. Today was taking Sam to the dermatologist and then a trip to the mall. I found a super cute new pair of brown boots, a cute long-sleeve white t-shirt at Gap, and some unmentionables at Victoria's Secret.

Today has been an amazing day. I woke to a fabulous email that I can't wait to find out more about. The sun is shining. The weather is warming. I had 2 huge Diet Dr. Peppers. Delightful.

Tonight is Sam's last basketball game as an 8th grader (that I will get to see). I am super excited. I can't wait. I am sad. 8th grade is half over and he turns 14 in 6 weeks. Where has the time gone?

I might get to go to Las Vegas. I have to ask Pete though. It is only a 50/50 chance but the thought of maybe is appealing to me.

I am blessed.

Trying to Enjoy the Moment

This is my last week as a full time stay at home mom. I am trying to enjoy the moment. Trying desperately to not take this week for granted. I want to savor the moments I have with her. The thought of missing something with Lilly makes me sad.

Scared

I am trying to not freak out. I am now officially employed. I am scared. Scared about sending Lilly to daycare. Scared about driving to Jeff City. Scared about being out of town for the boys. Scared about the strains this may cause our marriage. Scared about working again. Scared about it not working out. Scared. I am sure I will get past this feeling. I am sure I will get to the excited phase. I guess excitement is a "lagging indicator".

I need to go buy "work clothes". I have oodles of dress clothes but I like to have a lot!!! Maybe "need" isn't the right word. I want to go buy work clothes. I have leftover Christmas gift cards. Going to use them today.

The other day Lilly "painted" her toenails w/ a dry erase marker. She also tried to use it as a mascara wand because there was marker all around her eye. She cracks me up. I am going to miss not taking care of her everyday.

The kids had a snow day yesterday and another one today. Yesterday we went see a movie.

I am almost half way through my first book of the year. I will probably finish it this weekend. Expect a review in the coming days. Only 24.5 books left to read.

I am waiting for people to respond to my request for information regarding their childcare ads. I really dislike waiting on other people.

Changing My Mind

I was going to read 1776. I started it and couldn't get into it. I changed to Steven Berry's The Templar Legacy. I am hooked and well into my first book of the year!!! YAY me!!!! I am hoping to be finished by the end of the week.

I contacted all of my former professors about writing letters of recommendation for Graduate School, one responded. I finished my resume for Graduate School. A few more things to finish and I will be ready to send my $40 and hit "submit". I am ready. I can't wait to receive my acceptance letter.

Nicholas and I used our brand new dry erase easel to work on his spelling words. He thought it was fun yesterday. Today, he's not convinced. Oh well. Hopefully, it will make the process less monotonous.

Now I am going to watch a little TV and then read my book. I am so happy to have a new fun book to read.

Where to begin....

Today was a crazy day. It started off with the bus not coming to pick up Samuel. I called the bus company and they said that because of the frigid temperatures (-1*) several buses didn't start. Sam's bus didn't start. We had to take Sam to school which also requires taking Nicholas to school. I can't get back home in time to get him on the bus. Finally, we get home about 9am and the mayhem ensued.

Lilly was in rare form today. She had at least 2 meltdowns maybe 4, depends on your definition of "meltdown". No, she had 5 meltdowns today. Everytime she didn't get her way she threw a screaming hissy fit. Screeched, screamed, cried, kicked, .flailed, you name it, she did it. She didn't take a nap. Me and grumpy don't get along. Maybe it was the static electricity? Hmmm. The kid was a walking ball of static electricity. I could feel it radiating off her body. I rubbed her down with lotion and baby oil. It seemed to work. Oh, she said the CUTEST thing this morning. When I got her up, we went though our usual routine talking about where everyone was. Daddy? he's at work. Sammy? he's on his way to school (or so I thought) Then we hear this thudding rushing sound and Lilly says, "Oh NO, Tuna!!" Bless her heart and bless his heart too.

Today was Tuna's first day back at school without his cast. He seems to have survived. He was upset that he couldn't participate in PE.

I worked on my grad school application today. My resume is now tweeked so I can send it to my professors so they can write a letter of recommendation.

I received a job offer. I was offered the part time position with Hendren and Andre, it is contigent on an interview with the managing partner. I am hopeful and I feel good about it. I am sure he just wants to make sure that I am not a quack. I can't possible put my feelings into words. I had resigned myself to another disappointing rejection. I am scared, nervous, excited, hopeful, did I mention scared? Lilly has to go to daycare part time. Will she be OK? Will she be mad at me that I won't be home for her anymore? Will she be scared? Will she be nervous? Oh my.

Funny conversation with Sam. I asked, "Who did you have lunch with today?" His response, "Nathaniel, Nick, the Democrats, Matthew,....." I am beginning to think this kid is more conservative than I am. I didn't think that was even possible. He is such a good little Republican in the making. He will serve this country well, someday. I am so proud of him.

A Resolution, of sorts.....

I was thinking of a New Year's Resolution for 2010 but I don't like the idea of resolutions. Last year, I committed to watching less TV and it worked for the most part. I cut back on shows I already watched. I didn't start watching any new shows. Overall, it was successful. The problem was, I replaced it with more nonsense on the computer. This year I want to do something different. I was inspired by a Facebook Friend who read 47 1/2 books last year (her goal was 50). I am setting a goal of reading 25 books this year. First, I will read David McCollough's 1776 I've wanted to read it for years. I have, at least, 15 books on my bookshelf that I want to read. I will take suggestions for the other 10. There you have it...a resolution, of sorts.

Busy Busy Saturday

I had originally hoped for a nice relaxing Saturday but there was too much stuff that needed to be done. We were up and at 'em at 9am. Lilly stayed up late last night and I had hoped she would sleep in so she wouldn't be a grump-bucket. My wish did not come true. She was up at 7am and was a bear but we pushed through.

1. We headed over to New Franklin to the meat locker for some good quality meat. We bought oodles of ground beef, several roasts, and some pork. I can't wait to cook something with it. I can't stand the meat the local stores offer.
2. We stopped at McDonald's for a quick lunch. Lilly met the cutest little girl (that didn't want to eat her lunch) also named Lilly.
3. We went to Kohl's b/c I had a gift card. Lilly held up fairly well. Sam found a pair of shoes that he had been looking for at every store we've walked into.
4. We headed to the grocery store. I wanted to stock up on fruit and healthy food choices.
5. We stopped at Old Navy to use up another gift card that I had. I found two super cute sweaters.
6. Dropped Sam off at basketball practice.

We are finally home at 2:00. I need to unload the groceries. I am sure our ice cream is starting to melt now that it is in the house. I just want to sit and do nothing. Lilly is napping and I am enjoying the sounds of silence. We probably shouldn't have done as much as we did but she really was a trooper.

Not sure what tomorrow holds for us. Hopefully, not as busy as today. I kinda want a pajama day. Probably won't happen but a girl can hope. :)

Happy New Year

Happy New Year!!! I am hoping for a happy and healthy 2010!! I like new beginnings and the new opportunities that come with a new year. An opportunity to refocus, recommit, and rejuvenate my life.

As I type my first blog, Tuna is running his brand new radio-controlled car all around the living room. I am trying to be calm and serene even though the the noise is driving me nutty. I need to relax more. I need to chill. I need to find an inner calmness and NOT sweat the small stuff. Does the constant whirring hurt me? No. Is this constant whirring providing PURE joy to my sweet little boy? YES.

I hope this new year provides me with the opportunity to update this blog on a regular basis and to engage the cyber world in the way I have wanted for the past year.